I long to be held by someone I love.

I'm a 14 year old girl, and I don't really have anyone. I have something called Selective Mutism, it's anxiety so bad I can't talk. I've been this way my whole life. My parents say it's my fault I can't talk. They don't hug me or really ever say they love me. I'm lonely and I wish I had someone to hug me and love me.