I 39m am so lonely, I never put effort in making or keeping friends, now I have no one to talk to.

I never have put effort in making friends. Not in school nor after school, not on jobs I had. I never even tried to put effort in keeping them. I was never social. And now I am so alone I have no one to talk to. <br><br>I could never have a relationship, that is not for me, I am way too shy. I don’t even put effort in keeping in touch with family, which is why most of them don’t want to know me, and frankly I don’t want to know them. <br><br>The only people I have to talk to are my brother and very occasionally my mother. I don’t know how to make friends anymore, I have never been able to. It’s so hard. And I am so tired of this loneliness. I am so tired of having no one to talk to. When my brother was living with me it was so much better, but he moved out last year. That is why it is so bad now. I miss having someone I can talk to so much. <br><br>How can I break this loneliness? How can I make a friend? The only people I see now are colleagues. I don’t speak much to them, and that would not help anyway, they keep a distance from me. I am not their friend, and never have been. <br><br>I am so tired and so lonely that I don’t know what to do anymore. I never put effort in making or keeping friends, and now I have no one to talk to.