This is what I think of every night before I fall asleep.

I'm a 25 year old man from Serbia and I've never been in a relationship before. Never had sex with a girl, never had sex with a man, never had sex with anyone and I don't even masturbate. I'm not depressed or anything, I just don't have anyone I can talk to (my family is quite distant and my mother is a bit religious, so I don't think she'd be of much help), I can't talk to anyone. It's also super hard to get a girlfriend, I'm not some dirty loser who can't take care of himself, I'm just a bit shy and not good with people. That's why I don't think any girl would ever want to go out with me. <br><br>I'm not some kind of a loner, I go out, I socialize and I get along with people, but for some reason I can't seem to get a girlfriend (or a boyfriend, however I don't like dudes, I'm not gay, I'm straight as a ruler). My life is extremely boring and lonely. I have sex with myself only like 5 times a year, cause I don't like it, I don't watch porn. I'm not some kind of a sperm producer. I miss having someone to hug, to kiss, to hold hands with and to go out with. Doing anything, doesn't matter what. I feel like I've been living for 60 years already. <br><br>I just wish I could die immediately while I was with a girl and forget about this loneliness. That's what I think of every night before I fall asleep.<br><br>EDIT: Wow, this blew up. I can't answer every single comment, but I wanna say I appreciate every single one of them. You guys are awesome.