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I'm 7 months pregnant and regret it. I do not want this child.#####throwaway account because my friends and family know my main. <br><br>I just turned 21, I have been dating my boyfriend (22) for three years now. I'm 7 months pregnant now and 4 months ago I found out I was pregnant (it's a long story). I was a few weeks pregnant when I told my boyfriend and he said he was okay with the idea. I told my family 3 months ago and they pressurised me into continuing the pregnancy. <br><br>When I first found out I was pregnant, I was in complete shock and a few weeks later I started to feel sick and afraid. From the beginning I never wanted to have the baby, I didn't feel any happiness, I felt their movements and I never wanted to keep the child. <br><br>Its becoming so real and 2 months from now, their birth is near. I don't want to become a mother. I don't want to ruin their life, I don't want to be a burden to them, I don't want to make them suffer. I know I'm not ready to be their mother, I will fail as their mother, I won't be able to give them the childhood they deserve, I won't be able to spend time with them like they want. I want to get an abortion but I'm in a situation where I can't. I'm too scared to do anything else. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to handle this, I'm so depressed, I'm so anxious all the time. <br><br>Its becoming so real and 2 months from now, their birth is near. I don't want to become a mother. I don't want to ruin their life, I don't want to be a burden to them, I don't want to make them suffer. I know I'm not ready to be their mother, I will fail as their mother, I won't be able to give them the childhood they deserve, I won't be able to spend time with them like they want. I want to get an abortion but I'm in a situation where I can't. I'm too scared to do anything else. I don't know what to do, I don't know how to handle this, I'm so depressed, I'm so anxious all the time.