I'm a stay at home dad and I was a SAHM (stay at home mom) and I feel totally defeated

Update in the comments if you want.<br><br>So we have a two year old and an 11 month old and I been at home with them for about 5 months. I sold my business to stay home because we could not afford child care and my wife didn't want to leave her job to be a SAHP. She is a physical therapist.<br><br>I been at home with the kids since before Christmas and I just don't know what to think.<br><br>Before I had kids, I had a lot of things going on. A business, friends, a band, hobbies, and other stuff like a garden. I had a lot of stuff to do all the time. We had a nanny for the first year of our first kid's life and I was still very involved and spent a lot of time with him. I always loved my son so much and we had so much fun together.<br><br>Then we moved and I sold my business because it wasn't practical to operate anymore and hiring a new employee was getting hard and expensive. We moved in to our new house a month before the new baby was born. By that time, I had hired someone to take care of my son when I was away. But then the baby was born, and our nanny was getting ready to leave and we didn't really have money for child care so I decided I'd stay home. I didn't think it would be a big deal, but also didn't really want to miss raising my kids. And my wife didn't want to leave her job, that seemed to make sense.<br><br>At first, I was really stressed out and overwhelmed. I'm a very organized person and I like to think things out and consider my options carefully. But with two kids at home alone, I wasn't really able to do this in the same way. There's always so much to do, all the time. It's a lot different than having one kid and a nanny. So even though I was stressed, I learned a lot and adapted pretty quickly. I learned to be more patient and calm and in some ways, being calm helped a lot. The kids seem to really enjoy being with me and I feel like I'm doing a really good job.<br><br>But I don't think I can keep doing this. I feel like I don't have any choice. My wife works a lot and makes so much money. I feel like I really have to do this for her and our family. But I miss doing other things. I miss my hobbies and my job and my friends. I don't have time to do anything. I used to be a really social person and was a musician that played shows a lot and wrote songs in a band. I miss those things so much. I miss playing music and being social and having fun with my friends. I think about it all the time.<br><br>When I think about it, I feel like I made a really big mistake and I don't really know what to do. I feel like I really have to be at home with the kids because my wife needs me to be and because our kids are still so young. But I really miss my old life and wonder if that's what I should be doing instead. I feel like I made my life so much harder than it used to be and I don't really know why. I feel like I over committed and I wonder if that's what I'm supposed to do.<br><br>I feel defeated. When I really think about it I just feel hopeless and I don't know what to do.