I am a 17 year old girl, and I feel so lonely.

I am a 17 year old girl, and I feel so lonely.<br><br>I have no real friends.<br><br>I don’t have a phone.<br><br>I have no social media.<br><br>I have no friends at school.<br><br>I don’t feel like I have any real family.<br><br>I feel like I’m nothing but a burden to those around me.<br><br>I feel like I have nothing to live for.<br><br>I’m not special in any way.<br><br>Nothing makes me happy.<br><br>I feel like I’m a waste of space.<br><br>I feel like I’m on my deathbed and its pointless to hope for anything, because nothing ever changes.<br><br>I am a failure in every way.<br><br>My grades are terrible.<br><br>My grades are terrible because I don’t have the social skills to interact with my teachers and classmates.<br><br>I am not allowed to leave my room.<br><br>I never go outside.<br><br>Everything I have is secondhand.<br><br>I don’t have any personal belongings.<br><br>I don’t have any hobbies.<br><br>I feel like I have no way of making friends. <br><br>I am stuck in this rut.<br><br>I am scared.<br><br>I am very scared.<br><br>Because I know I am a failure.<br><br>I know I am a burden.<br><br>I know nothing makes me happy.<br><br>I know I’m nothing but a waste of space.<br><br>But there’s something inside me that screams out “NO!”, every time I think about it.<br><br>Because something deep inside me makes me want to be happy.<br><br>Something inside me makes me want to hope for a better future.<br><br>Something in me reminds me that I am not a waste of space.<br><br>Something in me reminds me that I am not a failure.<br><br>That there is more to life than how I am living now.<br><br>So I hold on to that, no matter how thin it is.<br><br>Because it’s something to hold on to.<br><br>Because it’s hope.<br><br>So I hold on to that.<br><br>I hold on to that hope.<br><br>I hold on to that hope ever so tightly.<br><br>Because in the end, I hope that something good will come out of this.<br><br>I hope that there is a light at the end of the tunnel.<br><br>I hope that a better future is waiting for me.<br><br>I hope that someday, I will be happy.<br><br>(I hope that makes sense. I’m not good at writing.)