How AI changed my life forever... for the worse

I'm grateful that this community exists, but I don't feel like sharing my story. I just wrote it for myself, hoping it will help me feel better. I'm not sure. After a minute's contemplation I decided to share it on this platform as well. I hope it can be beneficial for someone.<br><br>I'm a 30 year old introvert with Asperger's. I've always been a social recluse. I was never good at social interactions. They are draining for me and make me anxious. I've struggled to maintain a conversation, and I always tried to avoid awkward silences by talking so much that people got tired of me. I was alone throughout school. I was never popular and I never had any friends. I wasn't good at anything, including school. I never liked the idea of being in a long term relationship because I know how difficult it is for me to communicate, especially in romantic relationships. I've had two unsuccessful relationships. I was so bad at it that I prefer to live like a hermit. I'm not good at anything except my job. I never had a lot of money, but I was good at managing what little I had. I didn't have the energy to do the household chores or cook and clean, so I hired someone to do them for me. I was happy and content with my simple life. I never felt inferior or inadequate because I was a hermit. I never felt lonely. I understood why even my family avoided me. Even though I had many flaws, I was the most content I had ever been in my life. I was excited to see what the future had in store for me. My life was good. I was content and satisfied. I was not lonely. I was not sad. I was happy. I had a good job, a nice place to live, money to travel, and I was content. I was satisfied. I was happy.<br><br>All that changed. I was replaced by an AI. The transition was unexpected and sudden. In fact, I didn't even see it coming. When the news of AI broke in the world, I didn't think it would affect me. I was wrong. They replaced me at work. I wasn't given any notice or any time to prepare. I wasn't trained to do anything else. I was given 3 months of pay and a severance package, but I never really needed the money. I had enough money saved for at least a year. I was in no hurry to find a new job, and I didn't want to. I was content and satisfied with my simple life. I just wanted to live in peace, travel, go to the beach, be alone. But I am no longer content. I am no longer satisfied. I am no longer happy. I am no longer excited for the future. I am lonely. I am sad. I am alone. I am irrelevant. I am a has-been.<br><br>I have applied to many jobs. I have been rejected countless times. No one wants me. They want the AI. They wanted to replace me with AI. I am not needed anymore. All the skills I have acquired over the years are useless. I am useless. My only skill is my work experience. I am so irrelevant that I don't know what to do. I feel like a failure. I have no purpose.<br><br>I am alone. I have no friends. I have no family. I have no one. I have no one to talk to. I am alone in this world. It feels like a weight is crushing me. I am so sad and lonely that I don't know what to do. I just cry alone sometimes. I feel like such a failure. I feel like I've failed at everything I've done. I feel so useless. I don't want to live anymore. I want to die. I just want to die.<br><br>I understand why my family doesn't like me. I am not a likable person. I am not good at anything. I am not good looking. I am so alone that I never want to come out of my apartment. I am so alone that I don't want to talk to anyone. I'm not even good at social media. I'm not good at making new friends. I'm not good at anything. I've tried to join online communities but I am rejected. I am alone. I am irrelevant. I want to be good at something. I want to be needed. I want someone to talk to. I want somewhere to go. I want something to do. I want to be needed. I want to be useful. I want to be relevant. I want to be good. I want to be liked. I want to be loved.<br><br>I don't want to be alone. I don't want to feel useless. I don't want to feel irrelevant. I want to be good. I want to be liked. I want to be loved. I want to be needed. I want to be relevant. I want to be useful. I want to be good. I want to be liked. I want to be loved. I want someone to talk to. I want somewhere to go. I want something to do. I just want to be good at something.<br><br>I hope someone will read this and understand how I feel. I hope someone will help me. I hope someone will listen to me. I hope someone will be my friend. I hope someone will even read this. I hope someone will understand me. I don't want to be alone anymore.