Hate being lonely

anyone else just hate being lonely? I hate the feeling of. not having anyone to talk to. I hate being alone. I wish I could just be around good people. I hate people who are assholes. makes it hard to trust people. I found a few nice people in my life but they live in other states so I can't be around them. I don't want to be around people who are toxic. I want to be around people who actually care. I can't stand being alone. I've been alone my whole life. I don't like feeling lonely. I wish I could find my family but not my blood family. A family who actually loves me. I just wish I could be with people who understand what I've been through and I can relate to them. I want to feel like I'm safe. I feel like if I found people who actually love me I would feel like I'm safe. I hate feeling like I'm in danger. I hate not knowing what will happen tomorrow. I just wish I could feel safe and be around good people I can trust. I wish I could trust people but it is just so hard after being hurt so many times. I feel like I just can't trust anyone. I feel like I'm the only person in the world who truly cares about me. I feel like the people in my life only care about themselves. I wish I could just be around people who actually care. I just hate being lonely.