I’m so tired of being alone

I’m tired of every day feeling like a struggle and being alone to deal with it. I find myself going to work, and then coming home to watch TV and go to bed and I feel hopeless that things will never change. I feel like this is a story that no one believes and that Ive told my friends too many times. Every time I see someone I feel like they don’t really care about me, they’re just tolerating me while they’re waiting for something exciting to happen. I can feel myself slowly losing touch with people. I’m so tired of feeling like I have no direction, like I’m wandering aimlessly on a road to nowhere. I’m tired of hoping things get better but having no control over it. I’m tired of waiting on other people to acknowledge me but being ignored. This feels like a never ending nightmare. I just want someone to talk to. To listen to me. To hug me. To hold my hand. To look at me with loving eyes and tell me that I’m important and loved. I miss having someone to love and I miss having someone who loved me. I miss feeling important.<br><br>I know things could always be worse. I have bills and internet and food. I’m alive and safe. But that doesn’t change how I feel. It doesn’t fill the loneliness.