How many of you have considered suicide over this shit?

I'm in my 30s I'm about 6ft 190 lbs and I was in the military. I had PTSD from that, but then a woman I dated for 2 years said I was the short guy that always pulled on her heartstrings but she couldn't ever see herself being with me long term. And that she just liked me as friend anyway. I don't know, shit like that is why I've been considering ending it all. I'm not sure what the point of trying to make a better life is. All I've found is fucking women that think I'm inferior and would never be interested. Having a woman say that to me was the most violating and dehumanizing experience, it made me feel like I was nothing but a friend and I'd always be sequestered to the friendzone. Like that was it for me. <br><br>I've tried for a long time, I've tried therapy and improving my life and it's all for nothing because I'm short. I don't know how you incels keep going. I don't know how you don't kill yourselves.