My husband is a family man. I am just a woman.

I'm a 44 years old woman from Europe, married to a man with 3 kids.<br>I've been lonely since I was a kid, and in fact, I've never had friends or any kind of relationship.<br>I know I'm not the most charming or interesting person, but I've always considered myself to be "fine" and "nice".<br>Im married for almost 6 years now, and it's mostly ok. He has a good heart, he respects me and helps a lot with the home stuff and our kids. He also spends quality time with me, surprises me, and is a great husband.<br>The thing is; he always prioritizes his sons. Every decision he makes, is based on them. When he is with me, he is also mostly thinking about them.<br>He is a good father, and I'm not saying he shouldn't be, but sometimes I feel so alone because he is not there for me.<br>I think he also just tolerates me because of the kids, and sometimes I imagine him staying with me if we were just a couple, not a family. And I honestly don't think he would be.<br>I know I'm just a "family woman" to him. Sometimes he even calls me that with a huge smile on his face. I try to pretend it's nothing, but my heart breaks every time.<br>I dream about having a man who would be just for me, but for now, this is my life.<br>At least my kids have a great father.