[CHAD] I cannot wait to be able to fly first class and vacation anywhere I want.

I know there are some childfree by choice in this sub, but I want to say that I am childfree by necessity. I have what they call cluster b traits, which means that I may have a hard time raising a child or coping with the stress of doing so.<br><br>And I finally I feel well enough to say, I cannot wait to be able to fly first class and vacation where ever I want to. I love spoiling myself. I love going to nice well-lit stores that are not filled with screaming babies and getting the best quality products. I love purchasing the best quality tea I can find. I love having pets. I love spoiling my pets. I am really looking forward to living life and only having to worry about my problems. I know I'm a cluster b b!tch but I also know that I have learned and always learn new ways to cope. I have even learned how to behave better on the internet. Heck I even took the time to type this post out slowly enough to see I made no spelling mistakes. I know how to behave and I know I will never be the best person to parent a kid. <br><br>I may be a narcissistic, over sensitive person but I'm not a terrible person. I'm just not ready to be selfless and I don't want to be. I'm just not geared that way.<br><br>When I was a little girl my holiday wish list was so long that the list itself made it into Santa's bag. This was what made me want to have kids because I want someone to spoil like I was spoiled. Unfortunately I was not loving or nurturing enough to do that. I am still struggling to grow out of my need to be spoiled. Heck that's what this post is. But I just want to say. Apparently being bad at taking the time to know myself and asking for help resulted in a lot of negativity in my life. But for once I can finally say, I am excited to grow older. I love traveling. And now I finally am getting financially stable enough to do it. And I never have to worry that my child is at home.<br><br>Edit: I use "CHAD" in the title of this post with a bit of irony. I am not a CHAD. I am not conventionally attractive. I am not athletic. I am not popular. I am not well liked. I have decided that CHAD will be my acronym for Childfree Happy And Dissenters. (Dissenters as in dissatisfied with the correlation of marriage, children and happiness). I know this acronym is already used on occasion, but I'd like to use this for my title because these things are part of why I'm CHAD. I am childfree. I am happy. I dissent.