I hired a male sex worker so my husband would never find out.

I (34F) have been married for 12 years to my husband (35M) and we share a 10 year old daughter together. He’s an amazing husband, a wonderful father to our daughter and a partner like no other.<br><br>He works fir a big company, and has recently been promoted to a senior director position.<br><br>I have my own company too. I always wanted to become a baker, and I finally succeeded with lots of effort and very hard work. I have my own bakery/ coffee shop and it’s my happy place. It brings me joy seeing people enjoy my baked goods and my employees are my babies. They’re all so precious to me.<br><br>I firgot to mention that I have a medical condition. I have rheumatoid arthritis. I take meds for it, and I’ve learned to manage it. Life is much better now.<br><br>I’m also exclusive breastfeeder. I breastfed my daughter for 6 years and then donated the expressed milk for 2 more years. I was very proud of it. My husband was very supportive, and he encouraged me to keep going for as long as I wanted.<br><br>I have very big boobs, and they hurt like hell if I don’t express milk regularly. I also had a hard time stopping the pumping and expressing, even after I donated for 2 years after breastfeeding.<br><br>One day, fir the first time in 8 years, I didn’t express milk. I was too busy with the bakery and I totally forgot. Having boobs the size of watermelons isn’t fun at all. They were hurting so badly that night, but I endured the pain. I still did nothing about it the next day, and the next night my boobs were so painful that I cried. I had to express the milk, but I didn’t want to. I had a brainstorm and decided to try a solution. I called a male sex worker and told him the issue. He agreed to do it.<br><br>I met him at a hotel and he did his job done. My boobs didn’t hurt anymore. I paid him a big amount and he was very happy. I felt very ashamed and guilty. But my boobs weren’t painful anymore. I did it 3 more times, each time feeling more and more ashamed.<br><br>I told my husband days ago and he was devastated. He didn’t say a word fir days. He’s very hurt and he asked me why I didn’t tell him about the issue and why I felt the need to hire a male sex worker. I cried like crazy explaining and begging him to forgive me. He said he does forgive me but he’s still hurt. I can imagine how he feels.<br><br>I hope he’ll eventually feel better and our marriage will go back to its happy state.