I don't talk to anyone

I feel like my life is so boring I don't know where to talk just to know what I'm feeling in the moment. I don't have any real friends that I could call to talk about what I did today just to know what I'm feeling. I never really feel anything.<br><br>So here I am, on Chambers, again, typing random thoughts into a void. I only talk about real things in my life with my therapist once a week, and that's really it.<br><br>I'm an adult who goes to work and cooks for myself and maybe gets out sometimes but never really "talks" to people.<br><br>I don't know.<br><br>People I do know are so judgmental and I'm scared of being rejected or judged by people I talk to just a little bit. My parents are the worst.<br><br>I don't know.<br><br>I want to talk more. I want to be more social but I just feel like "why bother?"<br><br>I'm in a lot of "clubs" but they're just places I go where people I know have been and never are anymore.<br><br>I don't know.<br><br>I just want to talk to someone and have them just be nice.<br><br>I don't know.<br><br>That's it I guess.<br><br>Thanks.<br><br>I just don't know who to talk to.