Don‘t meet women in real life, it‘s honestly not even worth it.

Im 17, i got a little bit „popular“ in my school and in my area the last few months ago because i started to box and it makes me look kinda fresh and i got abs. The girls were flirting with me and all but i just realized yesterday that they were never actually interested in me. I was simply just a pretty face and a source of entertainment. I‘m totally done with dating women, they don‘t even know what real love is. I just realized that women are purely driven by attraction and that‘s it. And not only women, people in general but that‘s what makes me feel so lonely and isolated. I don‘t want to be just some hot face, i want to be loved for who i am and not my outside. It honestly fucking hurts so much. I thought my crush loved me deep inside but yesterday i realized she didn‘t. She asked me about my abs and when i am gonna „show“ them to her, she never asked about my boxer routine, she never asked me how am i doing etc. It fucking broke my heart and i cried and cried in my room when i got home and while writing this.<br><br>And the worst part is that this isn‘t something you can get used to. You can‘t get used to being hurt and this loneliness won‘t leave me ever. This shit will hurt me forever and i have to live this life like that. It‘s not something that you can „get used to“.<br><br>I simply hate this fucking world and it‘s people and i hate myself for being born in the first place.<br><br>EDIT: oh my fucking god, i got so many comments and upvotes, i did not expect my post to blow up this much. Thank you all for the kind words and many of you sound like really good people, so there‘s still hope!