So I just found out 3 of my siblings died after birth

My parents got divorced recently and I bullied my mom into telling me my family secrets so we have been talking about so much so I tell her that I bullied her cause all my siblings must be happy so I can be happy and she says “you only have 1 sister” I was like whattt? Playing dumb as I know I have 2 sisters so she gets mad and tells me we lost 3 of our siblings. She tells me my older brother died after birth and we lost 2 younger brothers while I was in high school. She tells me that they were dying after birth or when they were only a few months old. <br><br>I don’t know why I am sad. I never met them and I too was born dead. I just can’t believe I could of been a incestuous family if they were here.