My (20F) boyfriend (22M) kicked me out of the house when I wouldn't have sex with him. How can I fix this?

I'm a 20 y/o college student, my boyfriend is 22, almost 23. My boyfriend and I got together in July 2021. My boyfriend picked me and paid for my birth control and pays for everything. I have been on birth control since August 2021. I do not make money, only about $150/month, but he does not want me to work and instead wants me to spend my time studying because it is very important to him that I get an education. I am a full-time college student and I returned home after finishing my final exams for the Spring 2023 semester. I will not be returning home for Summer 2023 as I am staying in my college town to finish my student teaching this upcoming Fall 2023-Spring 2024. I'm planning on graduating in December 2024 and my boyfriend said he will marry me as long as I get my degree. The only things he wants me to worry about are school and my studies. <br><br>Up until recently, we have had a great relationship. However, things have taken a turn and I don't know how to fix this. Recently, my boyfriend accused me of cheating on him after I was hanging out with a guy friend. He pushed me, grabbed me, and tossed me out of a restaurant. I was terrified and tried to explain that this was my friend and I were not cheating on him but he didn't seem to listen. He eventually came around and said he was sorry for pushing me and tossing me out of the restaurant, but said he couldn't trust me anymore and broke things off. We were talking the other day and we got back together.<br><br>This past weekend we were staying the night at my boyfriend's friend's house, and I said I was tired and going to bed. My boyfriend came up to the room and said he was going to have sex with me. I said no. My boyfriend said he was going to have sex with me and it was what I was here for. I said I'm sick, I don't feel like having sex, and that I am tired and need to go to bed. My boyfriend said no and he was going to have sex with me because he hasn't had sex with me in a couple of weeks and I was his property. I said I don't feel like it now, but maybe we could do it another time. My boyfriend said he was going to have sex with me and I said no. He asked me how he was supposed to get off if I didn't have sex with him. I said I could pleasure him and he said no. He said he wanted to have sex and demanded I have sex with him. I said no and he got angry and screamed at me. I got scared and said yes. I thought my boyfriend was going to hit me. I was afraid and trying to protect myself. My boyfriend said I was his property and he was going to do what he wanted with me. He said it was my fault he was upset because he told me he wanted to have sex and I said no. My boyfriend said I was his property and I was supposed to obey him. I said I'm sorry and will do whatever you want me to do. <br><br>My boyfriend said because it was my fault he was so upset, he was going to spank me. I said please don't do that. My boyfriend said it was my fault he was so upset and I was going to have to get punished for what I did. I said I was sorry and I would do whatever he wanted me to, I just wish he wouldn't spank me. My boyfriend said it was my fault I got spanked and it was because of me. I said please don't. I started crying as my boyfriend looked at me with disgust and said he hates it when I cry. My boyfriend said he was going to "spank the disrespect out of me and teach me discipline" and then he started to spank me. I was crying and asked him to stop because he was hurting me. He didn't stop and said I'm not going to obey you and do what you say unless I discipline you. I was crying and asked him to please stop. My boyfriend said I was being a baby and needed to take my punishment. I said I'm sorry and will do whatever you want. My boyfriend said I was so unattractive when I cry and he hates it when I cry. I said I'm sorry and will do whatever you want. My boyfriend said if I was going to be his wife I needed to learn how to obey him and that this was the only way he could get me to obey. I said I'm sorry and will do whatever you want. My boyfriend said he was never going to tolerate my disrespect and he was going to do whatever it took to teach me that. <br><br>My boyfriend said the worst was over and I could stop crying. I apologized again and said I will do whatever you want me to do. I will never say no, I will always do what you say, just please don't ever do that to me ever again. My boyfriend said what I just did was the most humiliating thing I have ever done because now he looks at me as a piece of property and a product. My boyfriend said I didn't deserve to be his girlfriend and that he was ashamed and disappointed in me for allowing him to do that. My boyfriend said that I didn't deserve to be in his house, I didn't deserve to be with him, and I didn't deserve to be his girlfriend. I apologized and he kicked me out of the house.<br><br>I don't know how to fix this. I said I'm sorry and will do whatever you want me to do. I will never say no. I will do whatever you want. I will obey you and always do exactly what you say. Please don't think of me as a piece of property. Please don't think I'm humiliating. Please forgive me. I will never disobey you ever again. <br><br>I said all of this and more but my boyfriend won't forgive me, he's angry with me and says he looks at me as property. He says he won't tolerate my disrespect. I don't know what to do. I don't know how to fix this. I am afraid because I don't want my boyfriend to hit me or hurt me. Please help.<br><br>**Update:** I'm going to stay with my best friend and her boyfriend until I can get back into my own apartment for Fall 2023-Spring 2024. I'm not going to see my boyfriend anymore. I'm going to block him on my phone and all my social media accounts. I've decided to drop the classes I was planning on taking this upcoming Fall 2023 semester. My financial aid will be delayed, but I will be able to get it next Spring 2024. I still plan on graduating in December 2024. I am going to keep my birth control but I will switch to a different brand that doesn't have a lot of side effects. I'm going to try to get a job this summer to earn money. I'm working on my self-esteem. My boyfriend was texting me and crying and begging for me to come back. I told my boyfriend I needed space and said we could talk in the Fall. I said I needed to focus on myself. I told my boyfriend that I would only be with him if he agreed to go to therapy. I told my boyfriend he needed to work on his own emotional intelligence and maturity before he could ever be with me.