I agree to be lonely.

I was at my doctor, and he said I have BPD. I agree that I do, and that I am lonely. I see how my actions hurt people, and I have come to realize that I can be really mean, but it's because I get so angry. I can't do anything about it. I know I can just talk to people, but I am so angry about my past that it is very hard to do. I don't know what I am doing anymore. I just feel like everything is too hard.