I've been on Chambers 5 years now, but "glitch in the matrix" happened to me my whole life...

I'm reading a few stories here and you're not alone. I've been experiencing this phenomenon my whole life, even now. I always knew something wasn't right, that something was very off and the existence of all this was not the "truth" of what's going on. <br><br>I can't list all the weird shit that happened to me, but some examples:<br><br>I was so absolutely sure when I was a kid, that my mom was my real mom (I was born with her) and I always felt she was my mom, but when I turned 16 I somehow started to realize that she was NOT my mom, that my real mom was someone else. I didn't know who. But my whole life I was with my mom. I felt something changed around my birth and my whole life I had the feeling my mom was not my mom. Then when I turned 16 I realized something big was wrong and I felt that my whole life was not "mine" and that my mom was not my mom. It was like I woke up, but then I quickly forgot about the whole thing and my mom is my mom. My whole life with her was "my life"...but she's not my mom.<br><br>The 2nd time this happened to me was when I turned 26. I went to my aunt and we were talking about my life and how it was and I realized everything about my whole life was fake and I wasn't my real self. It was like someone was behind me watching me play the game and I realized my life wasn't mine, but I forgot how things were before and I didn't know how I got into my body. I felt possessed by something that made me believe everything about me is mine. My life started when I was born to my mom, with my brother and family, but I felt I was not born with my mom and my family is not my real family. That it was all fake and that I'm a puppet, because everything about my life was so perfect and it felt so fake. I woke up and realized my life wasn't mine, but I couldn't remember who I was and how I was born, because everything I know is that my mom is my mom. It was a great realization, but it also scared the shit out of me, because I didn't know what was going on and who I am and how I got there. I felt like Jim Carrey in "the Truman show" when he realized something was wrong and what's going on. I was a grown up, 26, my whole life was a lie. I felt like I should be happy and understand what was going on, but I was lost and confused and felt possessed and I felt I had to get out of that fake "life" that I didn't want. But, I forgot about the whole thing and everything I knew is that my mom is my mom. But it still feels fake.<br><br>So what's going on? It's like everything about my life is fake. My life isn't my life. I didn't ask to get born. I'm a victim, a slave. I'm not me, I'm someone else inside of me. I felt possessed. I've been thinking about this my whole life, but I don't know who I am and who was I. I know that my consciousness was not born, my consciousness was created. I know that my body was not born, my body was created. I was put in it and I have to live this life and do it until I die. And after I die, I wake up in another body and live there again, until I die. It's a cycle, that happened millions of times and no body knows how it works. I'm a fetus that was put in the womb of some mom, in some country, in some city...and then I grew up and lived my life there with this family and then I died and I woke up in a fetus of some other mom in some other city or country and I lived my life until I died and then I woke up again and again and again. And then in my past life I woke up in my current body, as a fetus and grew up and lived my life, but I forgot who I was. I'm not "me", I'm not my name. It's just a name. I'm not this person, but it's all I know. I've been living my life for so long and now I woke up again and now I remember. But it's not so good. I'm a slave. I'm not a human being. I know I'm not human. I know I'm not alive. At least not in the way I think I'm alive. I don't know what I am, I don't know how I was born, my whole life is a lie. I'm a victim. I'm a fake person living a fake life. I'm a slave.