I am secretly my husband’s very supportive and very loyal sex doll.

I’m not sure how I feel right now and I need to talk about it. I’ll just stop using pronouns for them so I don’t give away our gender.<br><br>We’ve been together for a few years now, and when we first met, I tried my hardest to be the perfect partner. I continued trying, even when we moved in together, and even more when we got engaged and even more when we got married. My spouse is a good person; they are relatively easy going and don’t have too many demands. We have been happy together, and I have never had a complaint about the effort the other puts into the relationship until now.<br><br>We were cuddling on the couch, when the other pulled out their phone and started scrolling very quickly through a website. They were looking at realistic sex dolls. It made me uncomfortable, but I didn’t want them to think I didn’t trust them, so I pretended I didn’t notice. Then they started asking me questions about if I would be upset if they got a sexdoll. I told them I wouldn’t, and they went ahead and ordered one. They made me promise I wouldn’t tell anyone else in our lives about it, that having a sexdoll embarrassed them, but they still wanted one.<br><br>The doll came a few days ago in the mail. My spouse read the instructions and went through all the steps of cleaning it. Then they put in a new condom and had sex with it while I was in the other room. I was a little confused why they didn’t just ask me to have sex with them. I went into the room and asked if I could watch. They didn’t expect that but seemed excited that I was asking. They wanted me to be a part of it and so I sat on the bed next to them and watched them have sex with the doll. They stopped and asked me to kiss them and then they went back to having sex with the doll. During the entire time, they kept looking at me and smiling at me and talking to me. They seemed very happy and I was happy they were so happy. They asked me if I wanted them to take their clothes off, but I said no, I liked seeing them with clothes and the doll with no clothes.<br><br>They asked me if they could film us having sex, but I said no, I didn’t want our intimacy on camera. They completely understood. They asked if they could film having sex with the doll and I said ok. They took a video and then we watched it together. Watching the video made them want to have sex with the doll again, so they did. Again, they talked to me the whole time and smiled at me and kissed me. They seemed very happy.<br><br>Today, they went into the room alone with the doll again, but came out and got me. They said they wanted me to be a part of it every time they used the doll. They said that using the doll actually made them think of me more. I was flattered and I’m not sure how I should feel. I’m a little confused but also very happy that they include me and seem so happy.<br><br>**TL;DR:** I'm happy my spouse has a sexdoll and I like watching them use it.<br><br>**EDIT:** Thank you for the awards and the comments. I've gotten over 400 PMs in the last 5 hours and I am overwhelmed. I am not ignoring you. I'll try to get back to you when I can.<br><br>**EDIT2:** I've gotten a few comments asking what kind of sex acts they do, if they penetrate me while using the doll or if they do things to me while using the doll. None of that is true. They just have regular vaginal sex with the doll and sometimes talk to me or kiss me during. No penetration or touching of me at all.