I went through my boyfriends Snapchat memories and now I feel sick

I don’t know why I did it. I always do this. I just can’t help myself. I’m so afraid of missing any indication that they might be cheating that I always snoop on my boyfriends phones until I eventually find something that makes me obsessed with the idea of them cheating.<br><br>Long story short, I found a video of my boyfriends ex blowing him from months before I met him. It was from after they had broken up and he was still involved with her. Then, I found a video of him on vacation this past summer with the audio of his now former gf in the background. They broke up last May. <br><br>I confronted him and he admitted to being with her this summer and that she came to visit him but said that it was a week before he met me in September and that they weren’t together. He admitted that he lied to me when he said they broke up a year ago and that they broke up in July. I don’t understand why he couldn’t tell me the truth. Is he still talking to her? I don’t know. I feel sick. The trust is broken and idk if I can trust him after this.