My (17M) loneliness is the most painful thing I've ever felt and I have no one to talk to

I finally got the courage to write this. I'm loneliness has been a problem for almost 3 years now, but some days are worse than others. I have friends, but they are the quiet type and they never talk to me. I wish I could talk to them, and I have tried, but they just don't seem to be the type to seek out social interactions. I'm the youngest in my family, and I don't have cousins my age. I don't have a gf, and I don't have any idea when I'm going to get one. Even when I was in school I never had someone to talk to. At home it's always dead silence, and it's so depressing. My family doesn't talk to each other, and it's a problem I know I will never solve. I just want to talk to someone for once, it's not much to ask. I feel like I don't even have a friend, something everyone needs in their life. I want someone I can bond with, someone I can talk to about anything. I want to meet someone I can share my hobbies with. I seek out social interactions on my own, but it's never enough. I don't know anyone else I can talk to, so I gave up trying. I don't know if I will ever be able to share my life with someone. It's not easy. I'm not a social person, but I try to be. I need someone to talk to. I'm not even depressed, but I just feel terrible. I feel like I don't have a reason to keep going, because no one will even miss me. I might be better of alone, but I'm too used to it.