It’s over

Sorry guys, think it’s over. <br><br>Might be a cunt of a thing to say but I’m 17, and I was genuinely expecting to lose my virginity in my early 20s when I got my life together, I always saw the vibe shift and whatnot on Twitter, but I thought it was all just funny jokes about the nature of our current modern society. It’s here, and it’s over for me. I’m pretty bad socially with people, but I’ve always been able to fit in with people, I was never a loner at school or anything. I’ve finally started hitting puberty and stuff, I made a post here about how I was acting so different, and I actually got a few dm’s from girls interested, I thought that was the turning point. I met up with them, I turned out to be a weird, unattractive guy, and they just want to be friends, I guess they got bored. <br><br>I went to school on Friday, and for the first time in my life, I felt an extreme social estrangement, like I didn’t know who I was anymore, I was known as the weird kid who laughed a lot, but in that day, my social battery was dead after 10 minutes. I’m finally hitting puberty, I’m starting to look like a man, I feel like I’m just restraining myself from doing insane shit at the moment, I feel like doing something drastic. I have extreme social phobia, and the most attractive, nice, smart girl in the school just went on a date with the most popular guy, who’s also the smartest and funniest, and it’s just my life over. I always thought that I could work harder, but the fact that the most attractive girl in the school left me in the dust instantly. I’m sorry. I’ve finally got my life together, and it’s over.