Every time I think I've gotten over my fear of speaking, it hits me hard.

This is where I get frustrated with learning a language. If I don't speak it for a couple of days, I just forget about it, then on day 3 I'm suddenly afraid of it again. But if I'm forced to, I might not speak perfectly, but I can still communicate without too much trouble. I was just talking to my cacahuète about a colourful person I saw at the bus station while on my way here, and I was very coherent and didn't struggle too much, though there was a bit of a pause when I couldn't remember a word. <br><br>Maybe I need to just make a list of stuff I want to talk about? I can be a lot less incoherent that way. But how long will it last? Will I ever be able to smoothly put sentences together?<br><br>Sorry this is mostly me rambling a bit about how much I suck at this. I know I'm improving and I should just be happy about that.