I need to get out of here, before I snap.

I love my child with every fiber of my being, but fuck he is driving me insane.<br><br>Older brother is autistic, I can't even explain how bad it is. He cannot be left alone, ever. We have to watch him 24/7, and when we can't, we have to lock him in his room so he doesn't burn the house down.<br><br>Younger brother is three and he screams and cries ALL DAY. He is the reason I have to constantly pull our car over to prevent myself from crashing and killing us all because I can't focus on the road due to him being so loud and obnoxious.<br><br>I'm 15 and I wish I could get away from this. I feel like I'm being held hostage in my own life. They have taken up all of my parents attention and time, to the point where I'm alone always. I don't even have a room to myself anymore because my autistic brother needs to be watched while other other brother is screaming his head off in my parent's room because he's afraid.<br><br>I feel like I'm going to snap if I have to stay here any longer.