The only thing that has made me ever want to become a dad is me being a dad to my own inner child

I was never interested in being a dad. I had no desire to procreate. <br>I’m 24 and I was just washing an egg yolk off me shirt when I thought to myself - “I really wish I had a dad to look after me right now.” <br>I’m not being sarcastic or anything. I literally wish I had a dad. I wish there was a dad out there who cared for me. A dad who I could depend on. I wish I could phone my dad and say “hey man.. I’m just having a really tough time and I need you right now.” I wish I had a dad who would care about me. I wish I had a dad who I could care for in return. <br>There is no dad. That is the truth. <br>I guess what I’m trying to say though is that, even though there is no dad, I have become me own dad. I’ve been doing an amazing job of being me own dad. I’ve looked after myself. I’ve looked out for myself. <br>I’ve just kept looking after myself. I make sure I get enough sleep. I make sure I eat properly. I make sure I exercise properly. I make sure I am navigating through life properly. I make sure I am working hard. I make sure I am earning a good solid income. <br>I’ve just kept looking after myself and making sure I’m happy and healthy. <br><br>And that’s when I realised that I was being an amazing dad to my inner child. I have been doing an amazing job. <br>That’s when I thought about how amazing it would be to be a dad to a kid. I thought about how great it would be to do all that for a kid. I would love to be a dad to a kid. I would do an amazing job at being a dad. I would work so hard to be the best dad ever. I would love to look after a kid so much. I just love the idea of being a dad so much.<br><br>But then I go back to my reality and I’m like “oh right I don’t have a kid, I’m just a dad to my own inner child. And that’s okay. That’s good enough.” <br>Because the reality is that I don’t need a kid. I’ve got me own inner child and I’ve got an amazing relationship with him. I’ve been doing an amazing job of being his dad. I’m proud of myself. I’m proud of me. I’ve just kept looking after myself. I’ve just kept doing what’s best for me. I’ve just kept doing what’s good for me and that’s all I need. I’m happy enough dude. <br><br>And that’s when I realised that I’m a dad. I’m a great dad. I’m an amazing dad. I’ve been doing a great job as me own dad. That’s all I need. I don’t need any other kids. I’ve got me own kid inside me and I love him. I love me. I love myself. That’s all I need. That’s all I need to be happy. <br><br>And I guess that’s what I’m trying to say. That’s what I’m trying to share. That’s what I’m trying to communicate. I’m a great dad to me own inner child. I’m proud of myself. I’m an amazing dad.