I don’t want relationships anymore

I’m tired of forming bonds and them meaning nothing to other people. <br><br>My sister and I were never close, I put a lot of effort into the relationship and she keeps making it clear she doesn’t want one. <br><br>My parents and I were extremely close. I basically grew up in the care of my grandparents who were always horrible to me, so I relied on them. But the last few months my dad has been telling me to go to college in another state and stay there and my mom keeps expressing how excited she is that all her kids will be moved out in a few years. <br><br>I’ve only had one close friend in my life. She was my best friend for two years and I saw her almost daily and I put so much effort and time into her only for her to completely ignore me and show that she doesn’t see how close we were. <br><br>I’ve realized I’m just alone. It sucks but I’ll just put all my time and energy into myself now.