I've been reading this sub for years, and I finally admitted to myself that I am 100% childfree.

I grew up in a Mormon family, but I'm not a member now. They drill the importance of family into you. My parents and I are a bit too close, and I've always wanted a bit of space between us. I think I continued trying to convince myself I wanted kids because I wanted to please them. I've always known that I did not like kids at all. I avoided babysitting and other kid-related activities. I was bullied as a kid myself, and I know how hard it is and I would never want to put a kid through that.<br><br>The past couple years have made it very clear to me that I do not want to have kids. I'm 24, in a stable career and stable relationship with a man who also doesn't want kids. I'm able to provide for myself and save for the future. I'm so, so happy and I know a kid would ruin that. Now that I've truly admitted to myself that I'm never going to want kids, I feel like I can finally live the life I've always wanted.<br><br>I've slowly started telling my family and I finally told my BF of 5 years recently. I'm pretty sure he knew I didn't want kids but he just wanted to hear me say it. He was happy and we finally started discussing things like moving out of our state and buying a house. I feel like I can see myself in the future and I know what I want. I'm excited to live my life.<br><br>I've read about so many people here who are childfree and it's helped me realize what I wanted. Even though I lurked and read so many of your stories, it finally helped me figure out what I've always known deep down. Thank you guys.