I will never trust a man

Im a pretty new feminist. Definitely been more of a apolitical person before but in the last year, I have been going through a more political awakening. <br><br>I watched the greata in lockdown, and then the drama between charlie kirk and taylor darling, and I'm finaly seeing the full picture. There is a massive disconnect between how I feel about masculinity and how the rest of the world feels about it. <br><br>The amount of times, since I was 15, that I have been groped, catcalled, followed and wolf whistled is insane. I have grown and learned to ignore it but now I look back at those situations and I am so angry, and I dont think that I am the only one. That, combined with the fact that in the UK (where I am from) 1 in 5 women have been raped, and you start to get the picture. <br><br>My gender has been sexually objectified to the point where we are seen as objects. I am so scared to be vulnerable around men because I know that i will be exploited. I feel like I have to make sure that I am guarded in everything I do. I am very choosy about who I will be alone with. I do not want to be in a situation where someone can see me as vulnerable and take advantage. I am terrified of being raped and I always have been. I do not think that I am the only one who has these feelings. <br><br>There is another disconnect between how I think women should be treated and how the rest of the world thinks women should be treated. I think that women should be treated as equals, with respect. I can see that that is not how everyone else thinks. Women are being spat on for speaking their minds, women are being assaulted for being out on their own at night. Women are being murdered by men they have never met. <br><br>I will never trust a man, I can't. It seems that there is nothing to gain from trusting men.