I went from wanting kids to being childfree.

The reason I don’t want kids is because of my brother. I had a very bad childhood because of him. <br><br>I come from a large family. My mum had 8 kids in total and I am the eldest. I was 10 when my brother was born and I had 3 other siblings. Now we are 8.<br><br>It’s all on my mum. She keep having kids. She didn’t want a large family. She wanted 3. But she had a very hard time to get my eldest brother and she had him at 31. And my mum and dad wanted a large family. They wanted kids of all ages. But they didn’t want a large family. They wanted 3-4. But my mum didn’t want to have kids that weren’t close in age. She wanted kids who had few years apart. So my mum had my 3 eldest siblings and they all have 2 years between them.<br><br>But after my 3rd brother was born my mum and dad decided to stop having kids. They felt they had enough kids. But my mum didn’t stay childfree for long time. After my mum had my 3rd brother she wanted more kids. But my dad didn’t want more kids.<br><br>But it didn’t stop my mum from having more kids. She begged my dad to have more kids. She cried over the subject. And my dad feel sorry for her. So he finally agreed to have more kids. So my mum had my 4th brother. And my dad felt he had enough kids. But my mum wanted more. So my mum begged my dad to have more kids. My dad didn’t want to have more kids. But my mum wouldn’t leave him alone. She cried over the subject and she begged. So my dad agree to have more kids. And my mum had my little brother. He was the 8th.<br><br>But my mum didn’t want to have 8 kids. My mum had my little brother because she didn’t want to kill her baby. She didn’t want to have an abortion. She said she didn’t believe in abortion.<br><br>So she kept him. And I had to take care of him. My mum made me take care of him. I didn’t want to take care of him. But it didn’t matter. My mum made me do it anyway. And I had to take care of him for 10 years. I was 20 when I finally didn’t have to take care of him. And I was relieved I didn’t have to take care of him.<br><br>And I didn’t want kids after that. I didn’t want to have kids because I feel that I already had a child. And I didn’t want to be a parent.