I'd rather die than procreate

So, I'm gay, and I've been sterilized since I was 16. I'm mostly comfortable with my gender (but there's a little disconnect). But most of all, I'm childfree.<br><br>I've always been terrified of the idea of bringing a new human into this world, and easing their suffering as they inevitably discover the cruel twist of fate that awaits us all.<br><br>Growing up, I would have panic attacks about having kids. I would have nightmares about it. I would feel like I was being strangled by the mere thought of it. I finally mustered up the courage to come out to my parents (and myself) about being queer, but that wasn't enough. I needed them to understand that I didn't want kids, that I was willing to die for this cause, to never have to bring a child into this world.<br><br>My parents were appalled. They were so angry. But I knew I had to fight for my right not to have children, to not be forced to go through a pregnancy, to not be expected to give birth to a child that I didn't want. I didn't want to be a parent, I didn't want a child. I knew that if I were forced into that situation, I would rather die.<br><br>So, I made my decision. I would fight for my right not to have children, no matter what. I would rather die than bring a child into this world, to put them through the pain and suffering that we all have to face.<br><br>And so, I got sterilized. I had the surgery at 16, and I was finally at peace. The weight had been lifted off my shoulders, and I was finally free to live my life without the fear of being forced to have children.<br><br>I didn't know it at the time, but my path would cross with my future fiancé, who was also childfree. We met, we fell in love, and we were finally able to live the lives we wanted, together and childfree.<br><br>I'm so grateful for the decision I made. I know that this choice isn't for everyone, and that's okay. But for me, it was the only option. I would rather have died than have children. And I'm so proud of that.<br><br>TLDR: I would rather die than procreate, and I got sterilized at 16.