My crush on my curvy best friend made me realize I’m attracted to plus size women

So I’ve been best friends with her for a while and I never really knew if I was into her or just wanted to be close to her. She’s about 200-230 pounds or so and has a thick waist and small brown eyes and brown curly hair. I guess I never noticed how I really felt about her until she was getting dressed for a night out and she was wearing this sexy corset. She helps me with my hair because I have alopecia, but she was getting dressed in the room and I could see her through the bathroom door. She had only underwear on and a corset and I think I got the wrong idea, but I never realized my physical attraction to her until that moment. I kind of felt embarrassed for being attracted to her because I know society is anti fat and pretty much shames and repulses at fat women, but I would hug and kiss her and hold her and come home with her sometimes. I think I was in denial about my attraction to her because I know my family would for sure judge. They probably wouldn’t understand because of the way society portrays plus size people, and I get it, but I’m probably going to end up being exclusive to them because they are so sweet and just so kind and make me feel great about myself and comfort me and love me. All the chubby girls I know have been super sweet to me and I don’t think I would feel that with skinny or fit girls. They’re just so kind and genuine and I think they’re the only girls I want from now on.<br><br>Edit: I’ve been fat shamed and I understand that I’m an outlier, but I’ve seen all of the comments from the fat shaming and I’m sorry if I’ve offended anyone. I don’t think you should be offended tho because everyone has different preferences in body type or personality and that’s okay. If you don’t like my preference, then you can go elsewhere. I’m not forcing you to see this thread, you clicked on it. I’m sorry I’ve offended any of you.