Why must I be born into a world I don't speak the language of?

I am a shy and introverted person living in a foreign country with a different language. Most people around me don't speak my language, and I have trouble communicating with them. Since the pandemic, I spend most of my days at home, playing video games and watching TV shows.<br><br>I cope with my loneliness by watching movies, reading, and playing video games. I also force myself to do my job as a teacher, despite severe depression and anxiety. I try to maintain some level of social interaction by messaging friends, but it's not the same as having real-life connections. I miss going out with friends, and my social skills are dwindling. I struggle to initiate conversations with strangers, and I'm worried that I'm losing my ability to deal with people.<br><br>I feel like I'm living in a different world, and I'm not adapted to this reality. I wish I could be reborn in a world where I can communicate with others freely.<br><br><br>Edit: I am trying really hard to be a hardcore lurker, but I want to thank each of you for your kind words (as they all were), and your words of advice.<br><br>Being alone in a different country, with a different culture and having of find a way to survive by myself was a great opportunity for me to grow as a person, and I am very grateful to have it.<br><br>Many of you made the suggestion of doing a language exchange and I am already doing it, and it really helps.<br><br>Thank you all for having taken a moment to read my post and comment on it, it really feels good, and I now understand better why this sub exists.<br><br>Best wishes.