Like what the fuck reaction do you have when you watch a girl talking with passion about something?

This was a post I put in r/AmItheAsshole today. Unfortunately, this chamber has very little activity, so I decided to post it here.<br><br>So on a lighter note, I was at a girl friend's house, helping her with her sewing machine. We were talking about our favorite anime and I said Future Diary is my favorite. She says, "Really? Why?"<br><br>I tell her my reasons and she says, "oh, ok. Yeah, I definitely agree."<br><br>I could see the disappointment on her face. I asked her what was wrong. "I was really looking forward to calling you a huge loser."<br><br>I was confused, so I asked her why. She said nothing, but I could see her eyes were watering.<br><br>I got it. I was the girl who cried when nobody else wished me Happy Birthday. I was the girl who started crying in her friends' car because she realized she could go to a better college. Yeah, I wish I was a loser too, because it's easier.<br><br>This girl, she's not a loser. She's working hard to go to a good college. She's social. She has real hobbies and interests. She's not a weirdo, like me. I'm autistic. She's definitely not autistic.<br><br>So no, I'm not wished a Happy Birthday. I know she's not a loser. I'm the loser.<br><br>"So, would you like to call me a loser?" I ask her.<br><br>She looks at me in confusion. "Huh? Do you want to be called a loser?"<br><br>"No, but I like calling you a loser."<br><br>She looks up at me. "I'm not a loser." I nod. "I don't think you're a loser." She could see right through me. She knew I was being sarcastic. "I know you're lying." She said. I nodded. "You're not a loser."<br><br>"I'm definitely not a loser." She said. Then she started talking about how smart and hardworking she is. How she's going to a better college than me. How she has a lot of friends. How she goes to a lot of parties. How she's very social. How she's very smart. How she can sew and do crafts. How she has a lot of talents and hobbies. How she's a model student. How she never thinks about quitting. How everything is easy for her.<br><br>Then she started crying. She doesn't want to be a loser like me. But she's not a loser. She's just a normal girl. She's better than me. She's nothing like me.<br><br>But I think she's autistic. She's very passionate and dedicated. She sews and does crafts. She only likes one thing. She only talks about one thing. She only likes one thing. But she's not autistic. She's not a loser.<br><br>She's talking about how smart she is and how she's going to a better college than me. I'm glad she's not a loser. But I don't care about college. I don't care about parties. I don't care about sewing or crafts. I don't care about being social. I don't care about anything.<br><br>I'm a loser. She's not a loser. I'm a weirdo. She's not a weirdo. I'm autistic. She's not autistic. I'm not a loser. She's not a loser. I'm a loser.