The most difficult time for me in life

i (28f) never really had a friend. it was okay when i was a kid, because i was naive and i don't really see things.<br><br>now that i'm an adult, i start to see things. like most of the adults i see have their own friend group. and i see couples everywhere. i see people who get to build a house together.<br><br>i'm still alone. while i see couples holding hands and people posting vacation photos with their friend group.<br><br>it feels okay, because i'm not someone who likes to be around people much, but it's the feeling that i'm worthless and i don't really have a purpose in life.<br><br>i've tried dating apps, but i don't get any matches. i've tried joining clubs, but i don't get many responses. i've tried even attending clubs, but i'm just a ghost.<br><br>i've tried. i've been alone for my entire life. i've come to accept that this is my life. i'm just alone.<br><br>i'm crying as i write this.<br><br>i don't understand why i'm so different from other people. because i don't really have anything against me.<br><br>i'm so tired.