I am so angry and hurt.

My boyfriend of four years, my first and only boyfriend, has been lying to me our entire relationship. <br><br>He is bipolar and has always had a hard time, and I loved and supported him. <br><br>A couple of weeks ago he got very drunk and some things came out that have changed my life forever. <br><br>He told me that when he came home one day and thought I had a stalker (there was a burglar in my backyard, i had no idea, and he showed me a video but it was VERY pixelated and grainy) and he lied about it to scare me (and I didn’t know that) and then a few days later when I told him I was a little scared he said he had the video and was going to police station to report it, but what he really did was tell the police that I was delusional and to pay extra attention to our house because I had “severe mental issues”. He even had the audacity to tell them that my childhood trauma was causing it. What he lies he told them. <br><br>When I confronted him he said it was just a big joke but admitted he was trying to make me feel safer and a little scared. Like, what, is that going to make me a better girlfriend? So I have to rely on him for support and he has more power over me? <br><br>It’s so messed up and makes me feel like I’m losing my mind.