My (F2) husband (M30) is best man and I’m part of the bridal party at a wedding I might not be able to attend.

I (F22) am a high school English teacher and my husband (M30) is a 7th grade English teacher. I moved to a new state after high school to go to college and haven’t returned to my hometown for more than a week since graduating. Last year I found out I was pregnant and unfortunately passed away the day after birth. It shook me something horrible and I am still trying to heal and help console my husband to no avail. I have been a shell of myself and people have become annoyed at how much I have withdrawn. I had become depressed and eventually gone back to therapy. <br><br>Our friends help console us and try to be as supportive as they can. They know I’ve been trying to get out more and be more social. When one of my husband’s longtime friend got engaged and asked my husband to be his best man, we were flattered that he chose us considering he has a large group of friends. I was asked to be a bridesmaid because the bride wants to make sure I feel included and not uncomfortable when his friends are around. <br><br>The problem is they live hours away and I haven’t seen them in 4 years. I’ve become depressed and socially awkward and am trying to navigate the second year of my career. I am not sure if I would be to leave for 3+ days and am not sure if I would be okay going back to my hometown considering I wasn’t there since before the baby and I’ve been trying to get out more. I have mentioned this to my husband and he wants me to suck it up and go and make sure I’m alright because I’m not getting out enough. I told him I may not be able to go but I will ask the help of my therapist. He insisted I will regret not going and that his friends will miss me. He’s insisted that I tell the couple I will be there with no problem. I’m not sure if I can go and want to know how to respond to my husband.