I have been cheating on my husband for 6 months. I am ashamed and I’m scared.

I don’t even know where to start. I have never done anything like this before. I was in a store, and I got hit on by a man and I gave him my number. I didn’t expect to hear from him again. I thought it was just a nice ego boost. I had no intention of meeting with him. I’m married and I have 2 kids and I would never do this. <br><br>I got a text from him a couple days later asking how I was doing and if I would like to go for coffee sometime. I text him back and said I was flattered, but I’m married and we have 2 kids. He asked if I was happy and that I deserved better. I was taken back and asked what he meant. He said I deserved better than being married at 28, having 2 kids, living in the suburbs, and having a minivan. I was surprised he knew my kids and my minivan because he saw them when he asked for my number. At the time I thought it was weird, but I blew it off. I kind of agreed with him, but told him it was too late now.<br><br>He called me from the number he got and we talked for a while. I told him I couldn’t see him again, but we kept talking here and there. One day I was at the park with my kids and he happened to be walking by. My kids saw him and said “hi.” My daughter told my husband about it when we got home and told him that I was talking to him. <br><br>I completely forgot about it when we got home and I didn’t think she would say anything. My husband asked me about it and I lied and said I didn’t remember him. I was afraid to tell him the truth that I gave him my number and he called me and we talked over the phone. He dropped it and I thought it was over.<br><br>He showed up at my work one day and I couldn’t avoid him. We talked for a while in the parking lot and he asked me if I would like to go to a hotel with him. I was hesitant and I told him no. I told him that I was married, I had kids, and I wasn’t the type of girl to do this. I had only been with my husband before and I didn’t want to ruin that. I got back to work and I thought it was over. My husband and I had sex that night and it felt weird. <br><br>I couldn’t get this guy out of my head. I wanted to feel special and I felt like I already did something wrong by talking to him, so I might as well do everything. I text him when I got off work and told him I changed my mind. I met him at a hotel and we did it. <br><br>I felt horrible after it and I didn’t tell anyone and I didn’t have anyone to talk to. I saw him again and we did it again. I couldn’t stop myself from seeing him. Now it’s been 6 months that we have been seeing each other and I don’t know what to do. I still use a condom, but I could be pregnant. He told me I look good and I feel special. He helps me out a lot and I don’t know what to do. I feel ashamed and my kids are my world. I love them and my husband so much.