My husband admitted to me that he didn’t expect anyone to want to fuck a 42 year old woman when we started trying for kids.

Before I start I just want to say that I’m not here to bash my husband or call him a terrible person, he is a great guy and I love him more than anyone else in this world. <br><br>But I’m not sure how to deal with his admission. <br><br>He is 47 and I’m 42. We met when I was 25, he was 30. So our age difference has never been a big deal for me and I know that we started trying for kids at 38 because he was more concerned about his age. He has no family history of male infertility, but it does run in my family and he thought that it would be best if we started trying just after we got married (I was 35 then).<br><br>For context, we struggled to conceive for 7 years. It is a miracle that my son is even here. We went through countless failed IVF cycles and multiple miscarriages. We are not able to have anymore kids because I had problems with both of my fallopian tubes and they had to be removed.<br><br>A few nights ago, I asked him if he ever wished we had a normal journey to becoming parents. Brain fart on my end, I know. He sighed and said yes. Then he admitted that he didn’t expect anyone to want to sleep with a 42 year old woman. He then said that he was really glad that we had our son and he wouldn’t trade anything in the world for him, but if it had been easy for us to conceive, he would have liked to be younger when we became parents.<br><br>He admitted that he now finds it embarrassing when people mistake him for my son’s grandfather. He would have liked to have been able to travel with our son without being assumed to be his grandad. He also said that he has started feeling embarrassed about how old our age difference is making him look. He said that he would have liked to age more gracefully and not look like he’s in his 50s. He said that he wished he had been able to take better care of himself when he was younger and that he regretted some of his lifestyle choices because they are catching up to him now.<br><br>I know that his admission came out of fear that our son would inherit his health problems. I know that he just wants the best for him and that he will do anything to make sure that he is able to see him grow up.<br><br>Still. His admission hurt. I know that it was just a slip of the tongue, but it hurt. I feel like shit. I’m gaining weight in a lot of places and I know that I don’t look like I did when we first met. I also don’t have the energy I used to have. The sleep deprivation on top of the pressure I’ve been putting on myself to work harder to make sure that we can leave a good inheritance for our son has really taken a toll on me and I can feel it. <br><br>But still. When he said that he didn’t expect a single man to want to have sex with a 42 year old woman, I felt like I had been punched in the gut. I know that he didn’t mean it but it made me feel like garbage. It made me feel like he was ashamed of me and by association, myself. I know that he didn’t mean it like that, but that’s how I feel. <br><br>Has anyone ever had something like this happen to them? How did you get over it? I don’t want to let this eat away at me because I know that he didn’t mean it like that. How do I get rid of these feelings? He’s been nothing but supportive of me and has never made me feel like garbage. I don’t want this one thing to change how I feel about him. I want to move past this.