Higher Power, Higher Purpose: My Psychedelic Journey Towards Spirituality

I had always struggled with the concept of spirituality and finding a higher power. I had tried everything from meditating with monks in Japan to reading religious texts to visiting various places of worship. Still, I couldn’t shake the feeling that there must be something more to life.<br><br>It wasn’t until I started using psilocybin mushrooms that my perspective on spirituality shifted. The first time I took mushrooms, I was skeptical. I had tried other drugs before, but nothing had ever given me the kind of spiritual experience that I was looking for.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>I decided to take a small dose at first, just 0.5 grams. I was surprised by how quickly the effects set in. Within 20 minutes, I felt a strange sensation in my head, like my brain was buzzing. It was a pleasant feeling, and I relaxed into it.<br><br>The next few hours were a blur of vivid visuals and deep introspection. I felt the boundaries between my individual self and the universe begin to blur. It was as though I had tapped into a collective consciousness, and suddenly, I could see the interconnectedness of all things.<br><br>The experience was so profound that it challenged my entire worldview. I stopped believing in the separation between my individual self and the universe. I started to believe in the concept of a higher power, and that everything in life had a greater purpose.<br><br>After my second trip, I decided to explore a higher power. I tried different types of psilocybin trips to see if I could get the same outcome. Every trip I went on, I felt like I was growing as a person, both intellectually and spiritually. I started to believe that a higher power was guiding me towards my purpose.<br><br>Before I knew it, 4-5 months had passed, and I was on my 10th trip. I was feeling more confident than ever that I was on the right path in life. I had gotten rid of negative people in my life and pursued hobbies and interests that I never would have pursued before psychedelic use. I knew that I was meant for greater things in life, and it felt good.<br><br>I continued to use psychedelic drugs for the next 6 months. During this time, I went on 15 more trips. I continued to grow as a person and gain new insights on life. I felt like I was getting closer to my purpose in life; I felt fulfilled. I knew deep down that I was meant for something greater in life. <br><br>Then, one day, a good friend of mine died. It was a car accident, he was only 16. His death really hit me hard. I was in a dark place and couldn’t find any peace. It was as if everything I had learned in the last year was for nothing.<br><br>I decided to go on another trip. I knew that I could find peace if I could find a higher power. I waited for a few days before going on a trip. I did a lot of research on using psilocybin to deal with grief. I was overwhelmed by the amount of positive comments from people saying that it really helped with their grief.<br><br>I decided to do a higher dose of 2 grams. I didn’t want to be in control of anything. I wanted to be fully submerged into the psychedelic high. Within 30 minutes, I was already high. I immediately started to feel a warm feeling throughout my body. I felt comforted and safe, as if I had nothing to worry about. I remember saying, “Life is beautiful, but death is even more beautiful.” That quote kept echoing in my mind as I continued to trip.<br><br>After my trip, I felt at peace. I knew that my deceased friend was okay. I was okay, and life was okay. It was a beautiful feeling knowing that I had a higher power looking over me. I had finally found my purpose in life: to help others. That was my higher purpose.<br><br>In total, I went on 25 trips. I stopped using psilocybin after the 25th trip because I had accomplished what I set out to do: find a higher power and a higher purpose. I eventually stopped believing in a higher power but continued to believe in a higher purpose.<br><br>I was able to fulfill that purpose by helping others cope with their own grief, using my experiences as a guide. Through this journey, I discovered the therapeutic potential of psychedelics.<br><br>&#x200B;<br><br>When used responsibly, psychedelics can open doors to profound spiritual insights and accelerate personal growth.