My ex wants to get back together with me.......

I woke up about an hour ago to texts from my ex of 10 months. We were together 6 years. We had a good relationship that was really only sullied at the end by her parentification of my stepdaughter. On Christmas Day, I found out that my ex and her boyfriend of several months were in my house because she gave him a key. I immediately ended it and kicked him out. I have not spoken to her since. <br><br>She wants to get back together with me. She’s deleting her Facebook and Instagram because she knows I won’t get back together with her as along as she’s on there, flirting with random men. She has an appointment in two weeks to get her implants removed. <br><br>I feel like I’m having to talk her through every step of being a normal person again, after a few months of being with thots. I’m not really sure why I would get back together with her. She’s basically admitting to making a mistake by leaving me by even wanting to come back. She wants to take things slow. I said I’m going to have to reflect and think about it. <br><br>I’m really torn because she was a really good girlfriend to me. I honestly can’t think of one bad thing she did while we were together. She’s very pretty, she was very good to me, and we just had an overall great relationship. <br><br>However, it’s just so hard for me to want to get back together with her. She just did something so fucking stupid and honestly it makes me not respect her very much. I feel like she owes me some kind of groveling or something. I’ve been reflecting very hard on why she would do such a thing, and I honestly think it’s just because I let her down in some ways. <br><br>I honestly think I just took everything for granted and was lazy in the relationship. I didn’t plan dates or surprise her with romantic getaways. I didn’t even really buy her flowers or chocolates. I feel like I did just go on autopilot with the relationship. <br><br>She did have low self esteem but I think I made it worse. I also was not good in bed. I had a lot of problems performing and having sex with her and we had to stop several times because I just couldn’t finish. <br><br>I’m going to therapy and I’ve been reflecting a lot on the relationship. I honestly really just miss her. I feel so fucking lonely and I miss having a partner to do things with. I miss being able to just have her in my arms. I miss her smile and I miss her laugh. I feel like I will never find another woman like her. I feel like I’m just beating a dead horse even trying to look for another woman. <br><br>It’s just a really hard decision for me to make. I’m going to have to talk to her later today and let her know what I want to do. I’m just really torn on whether or not I should give her a second chance or move on.