Just talked to my mom and had the best conversation ever.

Recently I felt like I wanted to be close to my mom again. She has always been a rock for me, she has always had my back, has always been there for me. It's been a while since we talked about *us* though, and I wanted to tell her that I'd liked being close to her in the past and was interested in exploring that again. <br><br> <br> <br>When I started talking to her about it, I don't know if she remembered me telling her before, but she told me that she didn't have those urges anymore. She said that's she was so happy for me and that I *was* her daughter and she loved me so much as her daughter. I told her the same, that she was my mother and I loved her and she always would be. <br><br> <br> <br>But I decided to take a chance. I told her I was leaning into the feelings now and wanted to sort of explore this in a healthy way. She told me that it didn't have to be a sexual relationship, that she loved me and would always be my mother and that she was happy to be close to me again *and* that it would mean the world to her if we had that kind of relationship. <br><br> <br> <br>She told me that she was happy I had a nice boyfriend, and I told her I felt the same sense of love towards him that I felt towards her. She said that was good, and that it was important to have multiple relationships and that it's good to have a strong relationship with your sexual partner. I said that I loved him so much, and she said that she could see that and that he was really nice. I told her that I loved her so much too, and that I wanted to see her and be near her more. <br><br> <br> <br>She told me that after this holiday is over, we can sort of get more reconnected and have a date. She said that she'd love to get in bed with me and just sort of talk and see each other in a way that we haven't recently. I am SO happy, I'm so grateful to have her as my mom. I feel so happy in *all ways* when I am near her, and I loved how we connected when we were together when I was younger. <br><br> <br> <br>We've been so happy, and once we're together again it's going to be like we're connected as a different family even. I wouldn't want to live anywhere else, I'm so happy at home. <br><br> <br> <br>I can't wait to have a relationship with my mom again.