I made a mistake

I see it now. I've been fooling myself for a while. The reason why I feel so alone and disconnected from other people, despite my efforts to get out there and socialize, is because I've been fooling myself into thinking that I had something in common with other people, beyond superficial conversations. I've been putting in effort trying to fit in with the wrong people for far too long. I see it now. I'm not like them. <br><br>I don't care about celebrity gossip, or the latest music hits, or whatever local gossip is currently circulating. I don't read the common books that people read, nor do I care about the social trends that people do. I don't watch the same shows that are currently popular or even care to. I don't even like the same food. <br><br>My mind is no longer going to lie to me. I see it now. They are not my people. I do not belong. <br><br>What's funny to me, beyond how pathetic it is, is that I'm actually a pretty well-rounded person. I have a college degree, I'm in good shape, I have a good job, I'm well-read in many subjects and I'm actually a pretty interesting person. <br><br>Yet, I'm still alone. It's funny, but also not that funny. I don't fit. <br><br>What's more, I've come to the realization that I don't even want to be around most people. I just don't like people. I don't like how selfish they are, how shallow they are, how vapid and stupid most of them are. <br><br>I'm alone and I'm fine with that. I'm not going to pretend anymore that I fit in with anybody. I'm a loner and I will stay that way. I don't need or want people around me. I don't need validation from others. I'm no longer going to put myself out there to get it. <br><br>I'm done.