SPSP4SPS. I actually hate my friend more than my “bullies” because at least the “bullies” don’t pretend to be my friend.

I am just so fucking mad. Just the fact that I have friends for some reason makes me angry. I want to be by myself until I die. I want to be like the one loner kid at school who sits in the cafeteria by themselves. That is my dream. I am fucking jealous of the loner kid at school. How the fuck did I mess up so bad. I go to a different school than the fucking kids who fucking bullied me. But like two of my friends were there to “help me deal with it” when they knew they still went to my school lmao. What the fucking fuck! I hate my friends more than I hate the people who called me ugly because at least they are upfront about fucking hating me. At least they have the decency to be fucking assholes and fucking bully me. But my fucking friends pretend to be fucking nice to me. I am just so fucking mad. I hate being friends with fucking people. What the fuck! I am fucking angry because I don’t even have anyone to talk to. I am fucking angry at myself. I hate everyone. I want to fucking die.