I don’t hate my child but I hate the way I feel about my child

I don’t hate my child but I hate the way I feel about my child. I hate that it seems like I don’t love him, I hate that I live in a way I never thought I would. I hate that I’m a working mom and my kid is in daycare. I hate that I don’t get to be the one to care for him. I hate that I’m not excited to see him when I come home. I hate that it’s a burden that he doesn’t get the best and I feel so bad for him for that. I hate that I never felt motherly love and I live in a constant guilt for that.<br><br>I know I’m doing my best and I know he’s loved and happy so I don’t understand why I feel this way!