I just found out that my wife of 7 years is actually a man, and I feel so disgusted and violated.

Update: I recently got the divorce, she’s out of the house, I will not be getting a paternity test but I will not claiming the kids as mine. I’ve stopped seeing my cousin but she definitely helped during that time. I’ve been feeling better, my mental health is doing way better now and I have more energy to do the things I need to do. I am trying to get primary custody but I know that it would be so hard for a father to get primary custody. I’m so glad that I got so much support, it meant so much to me. I’ve removed all my socials because I need to move on with my life and I need to stop thinking about it so much. Also I will not be making any more post like this. Thanks again. <br><br>I met my soon to be ex-wife 7 years ago, and we started a relationship. We seemed to hit it off well, she was the most attractive woman I’ve ever been with. We had a great time, had a great sexual relationship, and a few years later we even had 2 beautiful kids. But she always had this weird habit. I never actually saw her in a towel after she got out of the shower, or after she was done swimming ect. But I just assumed it was just a habit of hers. That was until one day I had to do something to her, that required me to actually look at her vagina. I dont want to go into detail, but lets just say she was in a lot of pain, bleeding, and needed my help. So I looked at her vagina, and I saw something that changed my life forever, she had a bulge. It was a big bulge. At first I thought it was some sort of cyst, but that was until I touched it. At first she was like “what the fuck are you doing?”, but I told her that I had to see what was up. It was hard. So I asked her what this was, and she started to cry. At that moment, I knew something was wrong. She told me, while crying that it was her dick. I was like “what?”, and she told me about how she was actually a dude. I was shocked. Shaking. And in disgust. I asked her what did she mean, and she told me she was born a male, but she went through transition. That she was sorry but she didn’t want to tell me because she knew that I wouldn’t want to date her. I was more in shock than angry. I wanted to leave but she begged me to stay. I didn’t even listen to her, I grabbed my things and left. I am never going back to her. I’m actually filing for divorce tomorrow. I feel violated, disgusted. I don’t even know if my kids are mine.<br><br>Editing because people seem to be confused. I did not see her naked, because she never let me see her naked below the waist. Yes we had sex, but she was on top every time, and I never grabbed her ass because she was always wearing like jeans or something. It was only once that we went to the beach, and she went in a wet suit. I should have known but I was just so infatuated with her, and I was so naive. It was a huge mistake, and I’m paying for it now.