Husband admitted to cheating when we first got together. [31F] How do I stop feeling so hurt even after he apologizes?

My (31F) husband (33M) and I got together when I was 20. He was 22. He had a girlfriend for five years before me. They broke up because she cheated on him. When he first got out of this relationship, he went a little wild as a way to cope. <br><br>We got together when I started working in a new field and he was one of my co-workers. We would talk all the time and I absolutely loved being around him. I knew he had a past girlfriend. He told me he had only been a couple of girls. I didn't press him about it. It wasn't any of my business how many girls he slept with before we got together.<br><br>Last night, we were in a fight and he admitted something that really hurt me. He was drunk and told me that he slept with literally hundreds of other women. He said he had a lot of one night stands and he would hook up with basically anyone and everyone. He admitted that he had cheated on me when we first started dating. He said it was just a couple of times and it didn't happen again. He said that once our relationship got serious, he started to fall in love with me and he completely stopped doing that. He also mentioned when he was 18-19, he had sex with some of my friends. They weren't exactly friends, but it was girls I knew through friends. <br><br>I feel disgusted learning he was a womanizer before we got together. I feel betrayed that he cheated on me. Even though it was a long time ago, I still can't get over that feeling. I have asked for assurance and he has apologized repeatedly. But even with his apologies, I still feel hurt and betrayed. How do I stop feeling this way? <br><br>TLDR: My husband admitted that he was a womanizer before we got together and slept with hundreds of women. He also admitted to cheating on me when we first got together. I feel betrayed and hurt even after he apologized. How do I stop feeling this way?