i think about killing myself every day

i feel so empty, so hollow and meaningless. life is terrible. i hate it.<br><br>it's every day that this hits me like a brick to the face. i just wish i could enjoy life and not feel so immensely alone. i want to end it all, and part of me wants to do it now, but i can't.<br><br>just venting and trying to let someone know how i feel.<br><br>edit: thanks for the support guys, i guess it's a collective feeling. i'm going to get help and let you all know how it goes. you're not alone.<br><br>another edit: i'm going to a crisis centre as suggested. for those who recommended it thanks. you're doing the lord's work.<br><br>update: i'm currently in the centre. been here for a few hours. i can't really edit but going to update here. i'm not going to kill myself. for the first time in a long time i do not want to die. thanks for the support and love, it's meant a lot - i'm so happy to be here, and i will let you all know how things go when i can.<br><br>thank you all.