I have no friends.

I have no friends. NONE. I just turned 40. I tried to make friends all of my life. I am not a bad person. I have many coworkers but they barely say anything to me. I tried to talk to them al the time. My birthday was last week, I did not even get a text from any of them. I am exhausted of trying to make friends. It is so hard to live with no friends. On my birthday I ran into a coworker and she said "oh I did not know today was your birthday, happy birthday!" That was it. She didn't even give me a birthday hug. I am sure she would not consider me a friend but she has always been friendly with me. I have never been gifted anything from anyone on my birthday. Ever. I always cut myself off from people who do not seem to like me. I am so tired of having no friends. I am a lonely ghost. I come to work, go home, cry al the time.<br><br>I am really beginning to question my existence. I just want to end it all.