I'm 1 month into being a stay-at-home dad and I miss being lonely.

I work as software engineer --- remotely --- and my wife is a medical resident who works long homes. I was so fucking happy working from home that I wouldn't even tell my buddies how much I loved it. <br><br>I'd work 6 hours a day in a big house, with no interruptions, with the remote work and no coworkers so I was actually happy after work, so much so that I'd play basketball 4 times a week, watch anime, play videogames. <br><br>Then I had to quit my job because my wife got pregnant, and then my boy was born after a year, and now I'm 1 month into this and I miss being lonely. <br><br>I'd work 12 hours --- sometimes 14 --- a day, and my boy would cry, and cry, and cry. He hasn't slept for the entirety of his 2 months. I'd feed him, and he wouldn't stop crying, change his diapers, and he wouldn't stop crying. I've tried everything to console him and I think he just likes crying. <br><br>My wife would come home sometimes and I'd tell he that I can't do this anymore, but she wouldn't do anything --- she'd just tell me I should try and change his diaper again. <br><br>Sometimes she'd go back to work and I'd call my mother, and she'd tell me that that was my life now, and that I shouldn't have expected anything else, so I tell her that I should've stayed a childless bachelor and she'd just laugh. <br><br>I miss my lonely life. I want it back. <br><br>I wouldn't trade my boy for the world, he's the most important thing in my life, and I'd die for him if I had to, and --- aside from the crying --- he's a great kid and I'm very proud of him.<br><br>I don't know what's wrong with me. I've been feeling empty and lonely, I miss my work, my hobbies, I miss having friends. <br><br>I miss having a life. <br><br>P. S. I'm from the middle-east so you can tell that my English isn't perfect. <br><br>P. S 2. I know that I'm being a little biased here, but I --- in my experience --- see stay-at-home dads who have it much MUCH harder than stay-at-home moms. I'm not saying being a stay-at-home mom is easy, but I think we stay-at-home dads have a much harder time. This is part of the reason that made me join chambers, I think this sub is the safest space for me to be more forthcoming without being judged and shamed. <br><br>edit: to change the format a little.<br><br>edit 2: To the people in the chat telling me that I'm a poor father and a bad person who should be ashamed of his son, I'd like to tell you that you're the ones who should be ashamed --- I've never been a better person than I am now; to see you tell me that I should be ashamed of how I feel about being a parent is... To say the least, disappointing.<br><br>To the people who I've DM'd and messaged me, I'm so thankful and I'm very happy for your support, and your kind words.